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While I work out running on the treadmill I think to myself I’m not fat but I’m definitely not skinny. So I run and run till I can’t anymore and then I go to the scale and its still the same weight. Like what the fuck? I feel my ab muscles and I feel like my tummy has less jiggle and my clothes fit better but still nothing!!! I’m even eating better! Its so frustrating because while by the bmi graph I’m 15 pounds overweight but sometimes when I’m around all these skinny people I feel like I’m an elephant compared to them especially when we all try on the same dress at the mall or when I can’t try it on because the medium won’t fit my boobs and theres no larges. So what is my description I’ve been a size 10 since eigth grade except for tht one year when I was an eight… so how do I feel better? Do i just keep working out? Get a better self esteem? Am I a skinny girl stuck in a slightly chunky body? Or a girl with colliding genes where your moms obese and your dads anorexic and your body is like hey lets be slightly fluffy….